December has traditionally involved a month-long mental health breakdown complete with a rollercoaster ride of emotions, year after year. My love-hate relationship with Christmas began when I was a teenager. I have always been able to enjoy the fun, festive moments that were sprinkled in and I put myself out there in different ways to create and be part of special moments. Yet, there is a dark shadow cast over the month of December and Christmas is a really hard time for me.
I have always liked the idea of New Year’s Resolutions because goal setting in itself is a good thing. Coming out of a rough month makes sticking to any kind of new goal nearly impossible for me though. I had a lot of success with Weight Watchers when my daughter was two years old and I was thinking of becoming a leader. The first meeting of the new year saw a long line up of new member sign ups and our meeting started late because of the influx of people. Hello to New Year’s Resolutions! I was surrounded by a lot of people who wanted something better for themselves and it was inspiring.
I switched up my thinking around that time and decided to make New Year’s Evolutions instead of Resolutions. I committed to myself that I would continue evolving into an even more awesome version of myself. My goal was pretty simple: keep being awesome and keep doing awesome things. New Year’s Evolutions have contributed to a lot of my success in curating a life I am proud of.
With a new calendar year coincidently right around the corner, I am switching up my mindset again. I have been in a new season of life for a while, a midlife awakening of sorts and I feel really good about the direction I am going. The word slay is defined by Merriam-Webster as to do something or perform exceptionally well or impressively.
I am slaying the season of life that I am in.
I sought out a new therapist back in August and we have worked together to help me make sense of what I was feeling. I unloaded about my past to make sense of the present that held a lot a lot of built up angst, so that I can feel confident about my future. Our time together is slowly coming to an end and I am really grateful for the time we spent together. I feel really good about the breakthroughs that I have had.
In this season of my life, I am committed to continuing to taking care of my whole being, body, mind, and spirit. I’m still sorting out what that looks like but one thing is for sure, I will slay it!